wow i can't believe the summer is coming to an end.... i fuckin hate this. i mean a part of me wants to go back to school, but an even bigger part of me doesn't want to AT ALL!!!! the summer just went by tooooooo quickly, and i wasn't even able to do much this summer. i went to the beach maybe 4 times. AT MOST, and i fuckin live at the beach. i went to shampoo a few times, went bowling played A LOT of pool down in RIO Grande. but that's pretty much it. the thing im going to miss the most ab0ut the summer is being able to fall asleep in shane's arms. i love that feeling of having him laying next to me!!i just can't believe its almost over....

::tear::

wow....been mad long since i wrote in this shiz. well things have been going good....i guess...working a lot, going to SHAMPOO. fun times, chillin with alyse, dari, melinda and errrbody. i had a dream the other night, it was a fucked up dream!!!let me tell you! i woke up crying, and then i just laid there for 45 minutes crying, it was crazy...i'm going back to O.C.!!!! im kinda happy. i guess it'll be some fun times....well i gotta get bac to work, i'll try and keep up with this shiat.

Peace

so im at work once again writing here....hmmmm....well we're completely dead. we have had like 5 people in the past 2 hours.... boring...but fun because im just screwing around on the computer....well the sun is going down....it looks beautiful....grrr i can't stop thinking about all the shit that has happened in the past 2-3 weeks...it really upsets me, but i cant let it get to me....

well i slept over christine's house lastnight it was fun!!!! christine, me and char sat outside for like 2 hours and just talked....well me and christine did, char was talking to her ex boyfriend....off away from us being all shady how she said she wanted to be....lol....we seriously smoked like a pack in those 2 hours....i loved hanging out with christine again...it's so AMAZING how her and i could be bestfriends.....go our separate ways for a little while, and then hang out and reunite, and take off from where we left off.... i love her to DEATH! she is my Bestfriend, and that will NEVER change....we still have so much in common...well anyway when we came inside lastnight after the 2 hour thing, i ate waffles and she ate sunflower seeds?!?!?! thats real food...lol...crazy cat she is...lol...then char came in, and then we all went back outside and talked for another half hour or so.....then we came inside and went to their room, and all laid on the footan(however you spell it) because we were watching the Boogey-Man, and none of us wanted to be alone....then we just all passed out and then me and chris woke up and i took a shower, and clogged it...lol dont know how...lol then hung out with shane... and now im here....pretty much sums it all up....*fun time*

well i g2g do something useful.....

*Summer Time Moments*

So i found out a couple days ago, that my boyfriend had sex with 1 of my ex friends while i was away in florida!!! fun fun..... she a stupid ass fuckin smut. i mean really she would fuck anyone she could.... how many had it been in the past year? huh? yea so im mad at him, but im extremely mad at her!!! she was supposed to be my friend?!?!?!?! you dont fuckin do that! she knew me and him were going out and she did this to me?!? yea fucked up eh? she was always telling us and everyone else that she didn't like our relationship, because we hung out too much and we couldn't do anything alone, and all this negative stuff... it was all bullshit, she was just fuckin jealous because she cant have her own good fuckin relationships, because she ruins them all..

i have so much fuckin black mail on this fuckin girl right now. from her and --- having sex when him and his g/f borke up....and her comforting her "friend" and telling her how they were prolly gonna get back together and making this poor girl think that she actually felt sorry for her, but yet all that time she was stabbing her in the back. also how her and ---- were engaged and she didn't even tell her best friend?!?! and how she hates lauren and bert and all.

and best of all...... how's she a dead fuck!!!!! she just fuckin lays there, which i have heard from more than 1 person!!!!!!!! i find that very AMUSING! yea bitch you wanna stab me in the back?!?! well paybacks a bitch!

you'll get whats coming to you!